Still Sad, I Feel

Mar 27, 2008 at 2:56 PM
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I've been on-line since I woke up this morning. No, I don't chat much. Just with a friend in Balikpapan and my cousin, Leonard. And after my friend logged out, I remembered that I promised Dad to dye his hair today. I did.

Dad doesn't have much hair anymore, and those that's still left is thin. It doesn't take much time and cream to dye it. He didn't even realized that it's done when I stopped "playing" on his hair with the comb and brush.

For an almost 83 year-old man, he's handsome to me, even though he's not as good looking as (late) Mom. I look more like him than Mom. I wish I inherit more of Mom's beauty...

Since I was a child, I often told that it's strange that I don't look as beautiful as Mom. It makes me sad, even though I'm proud that I am a daughter of one of the most beautiful women in the world. Well, she's the most beautiful among her sisters, at least.

View from My Room

Never mind. I should be grateful as I got Dad's beautiful mind and heart, as I was told by Mom. And I have Mom's voice, too :)

It's been a quite sunny day here in Jakarta. I've no plan for the day, but tomorrow I'm going to hang out with my friends at Hard Rock. I'm so excited! It's been a couple of weeks, I think, since the last time I spent time with them. Ella and Siti won't join us as they're having vacation in Lombok now and won't be back here until Saturday. I'm joyful that Danny and Lily have confirmed that they will be there, too. And Vivi? Of course she will be there! She's my partner in crime, in happiness, in sadness, in drunkenness. She gotta be where ever I am drink! :)

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I'm looking at photos of your photos titled, "Self-Portrait" and I see a beautiful woman. I don't know of course, what your lovely mother looked like, but why would you compare your beauty to anyone else's beauty? Beauty is so personal. And it comes from many factors. Have you ever met someone who seemed so physically lovely at first, but as as time wore on, seemed less so as you got to know the person? Or what about people who seem ordinary-looking at first, but then just get more glowingly beautiful as you see their personalities unfold? I know a woman who captured the heart of one of the most physically perfect men I know. She was not only not as beautiful' as he, she had a skin condition which was very evident. This is true. But when she walked into a room, in moments you forgot all this, because it was like she brought the sun in with her with her delightful laugh, her self-confidence and her charming,loving personality. Her physically -perfect husband worshipped her, never cheated on her and they are married happily to this day, more than thirty years later. There are many ways to develop physical beauty today. Part of that is through science, but a bigger part is through the goodness of the soul.